why the hell are you still here?

this is a note from me, to me...

Honest to God...why the frick are you still here?!

oxygen thief! Liar! Waster! User! Useless, worthless, spineless, insufferable, broken idiot!

WHAT THE HELL?!!

WHY do you care so much about whoever finds you?!

WHY is THAT the part you're focussed on?!!!!

WHY can't you see that the pro's and con's column has an empty side and a full-to-bursting side?!!

Or rather, WHY are you so damn intent on focussing on the poor bastard who finds your corpse that you're overlooking it?!! You're broken...too broken to be repaired now. So just get the person or people who find you OUT OF YOUR STUPID THICK SKULL and do it. You won't know who finds you. Shut the fuck up. Stop harassing everyone and just fucking do it you despicable, empty excuse for a human being.

YOU'RE NOT A HUMAN BEING -YOU'RE A HUMAN FUCKING-UP!
 ...over and over and over ad nauseam...

Stop calling out for help.

It's disgusting -much like yourself.

And you know it's inevitable.

You're being as selfish as ever by hanging on longer -taking more money from the government, adding to already hefty case-loads of overworked doctors, nurses, therapists, intervention workers, social workers...

You're pathetic.

And the thing is.

You know you are.