that's how i feel in general over the last few years...3 years ago today i was in the highlands and went sledging with a friend...straight into a tree at the bottom of the hill.
it sounds comical.
it's not.
i still can't walk unaided. i have crutches, a rollator, things to help get in the bath, a trolley on wheels to help bring hot food out from the kitchen (not that i eat much hot food anymore...i really can't be bothered -with anything!), i have a wheelchair too now.
i was in the stookie (plaster cast) for almost 6 months.
i now walk (with crutches or rollator) with an air-walker (moon boot).
...'cept i don't anymore.
i don't really go out anymore.
so i just crawl.
i'm sore all the time and sick of being sore.
it's all too complicated now.
there was talk for years about an operation and then suddenly i was released from orthopaedics as they said there was nothing more they could do.
thanks guys! there's now nothing more i can do...
how can anyone go on when all they do is annoy the hell out of themselves every minute of every day -now even the little sleep i get is no escape either?!
it's too noisy and irritating to be me...
everything i've ever done (or not) or said (or not) or thought...well, they've always been the wrong things to do or say or think...or not...
putting my hands up now...
i'm out.
fuck this
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