the more that happens the less i can put it into words

my 10 year old niece just discovered yesterday that i self harm...


words cannot express how disgusted with myself i am...

we did, however, get 20 minutes COMPLETELY alone and i took the opportunity to explain that i do not wish her to view it as a good thing, a positive thing, a helpful thing...and that if she were to do it because she somehow thought it ok to do because she knows i do it -well, that would crush me...

she said she'd never do it because it wouldn't help anyone, least of all her and that she'd talk to someone instead....basically, she regirgitated what i'd said to her but she used her own words...

please, God, let that truly have sunk into her little head and heart...


please