"There's been a murder" (in Glasgow's East End)

That phrase from Taggart (what a good actor!) broad Glaswegian and you just KNEW you were going to get a great storyline...

It's now rather odd...

1. Taggart continues WITHOUT Taggart (he passed away OUTWITH a plot line..I mean, in real life...) I have NO IDEA how they put it into the show because I don't think I watched it again without him in it.

2. Yet another murder in Glasgow. This one, this time yesterday. Heaven knows what was unfolding but IN BROAD DAYLIGHT RIGHT OUTSIDE MY ADJACENT FLAT ENTRANCE, a boy (21...barely an adult, but yes,

Ok, a young adult male) was found fighting for his life.

3. He did not win that fight.

4. He lived a bit of an old-before-his-time life...his gran and mum had passed away and he lived with his girlfriend -so the media circus says.

...the girlfriend will be the owner of the shrieks and wails I heard then? God love her!

Nobody NOBODY deserves to have such an horrific thing happen, the ripples ad consequences are far beyond what you could imagine. 

4. I did not m is him and yet today it is swimming round my head and I've had about 2 hours of sleep. I feel sick. I DID NOT KNOW HIM. Is this BPD? Is this the monster in my head? I CANNOT STEP FOOT OUT OF MY DOOR. I won't allow my sister to come pick me up. I told my mum I'm never leaving the flat again -slight exaggeration obviously --and I told her so! A step forward! Normally I completely mean it!

My poor mum must be worried I'll nosedive and return to my hermitage...

She only lives through the trees.

This is the stuff from films isn't it?

It's not supposed to happen. Certainly not RIGHT THERE...I'm literally looking at 20 police officers!

This is not the first murder here. It's not the first in the few years I've lived here. It still haunts and horrifies me. It's the stuff of nightmares. 

In the very early hours of this morning I could hear yet more grief pouring out. Wails and sobs of a damaged heart. Grief that cannot be tamed just outside my window...this is just one death? This world is so, so broken... I cannot even imagine the places in the world where it isn't safe to step a foot out of place (or even step foot!) A relative/friend had clearly just arrived... My heart hurts for them...nobody deserves that...nobody.

Glasgow housing association have been staying that the crime records have been WAAAY down and what not to get people to move into these flats -and, yes, it is petty things that have been grinding my gears...but this??!! This?! Poor boy!

Sandyhills. Had a bad reputation - then went quiet now... This?!

I thought they'd be gone by morning - wrong!