What do you do when you've given up all hope?
Who do you turn to when you have no one to turn to?
What do you do when the 'professionals' don't listen?
Where do you go when the Doctors don't believe you aren't happy?
When do you know it's time to leave?
I think it's mine...I'm sorry to post this but I don't know what else to do....I have no one and nothing...No one is listening I feel tremendously alone.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?WHERE SHOULD I GO?CAN I SECTION MYSELF?I DON'T FEEL SAFE WITH ME!!!!!
I feel ridiculous for posting this but I haven't a clue what else to do...I have tried EVERYTHING...I know there is only one way out....I can't stop crying....I hate me for thinking this.....other people are really sick and dying all around me...I wish I could swap places with them and let them have the lives they deserve.
I'm sorry I've been such an embarrassment to the human race..I wish I could have been murdered...I wish I hadn't cut my arms and brought shame to those who meet me ('cause they felt awkward and don't know what to say)
I wish I could have been a great many things and made my parents proud.But I haven't.I'm not.I'm me and I'm not good enough... "
Who do you turn to when you have no one to turn to?
What do you do when the 'professionals' don't listen?
Where do you go when the Doctors don't believe you aren't happy?
When do you know it's time to leave?
I think it's mine...I'm sorry to post this but I don't know what else to do....I have no one and nothing...No one is listening I feel tremendously alone.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?WHERE SHOULD I GO?CAN I SECTION MYSELF?I DON'T FEEL SAFE WITH ME!!!!!
I feel ridiculous for posting this but I haven't a clue what else to do...I have tried EVERYTHING...I know there is only one way out....I can't stop crying....I hate me for thinking this.....other people are really sick and dying all around me...I wish I could swap places with them and let them have the lives they deserve.
I'm sorry I've been such an embarrassment to the human race..I wish I could have been murdered...I wish I hadn't cut my arms and brought shame to those who meet me ('cause they felt awkward and don't know what to say)
I wish I could have been a great many things and made my parents proud.But I haven't.I'm not.I'm me and I'm not good enough... "
...wish I'd realised the power of Jesus before the craziness that ensued later that evening...hindsight -isn't it wonderful..the answer to all of my questions there asking who could help seems soooo obvious now...but at the time...phew even when I didn't turn to Him with all of my problems -He still got me through it...He truly is awesome!!! = )
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