be careful...

Okay, so at 4am I was woken by my breathing ability -or lack thereof...oh asthma how you annoy me...I've been told by a few people that I've been given the gift of "redemptive suffering" -I don't quite understand that but I'm not really trying to...I can, however, see the graces I'm being given in most situations when only a few short years ago I would have fallen to pieces and seen only negatives.

If that is how suffering is a gift -then I get it...but other than that I cannot quite get my head round it -it's a bit like delving into how the trinity works or how God "who is and who are"-I can accept it and possibly explain it to a child -but ask more from me and my brain starts to feel like it's melting...

I've been warned in the past to "be careful what you wish for!" but now it seems more fitting a warning to say "be careful what you pray for" ...I asked Jesus and Mary to make me closer to them in whichever way they saw fit and, trusting that they know me better than I know myself, to do with me what they willed...
Now then, I have grown more spiritually and emotionally in the past year than I could have ever anticipated or even dreamed -but I didn't quite expect a broken ankle which would refuse to heal!

So, yes, God answers prayers and works in mysterious ways...but if you're not in it 100% (and even if you are!)...be careful how you pray...and maybe be careful how you sledge too! = )

Oh and nowadays if I'm ever in doubt I will offer up my prayers for those whom Mother Mary deems most in need of them -just think, if everyone did that...another rather mind-boggling thought there, which -since it's now after 5am- I think I may look into at a more reasonable hour of the day.

DAY ONE OF THE CHRISTMAS NOVENA -and there was a space in the one I found on the EWTN website to state your intention...perfect opportunity for me to forget my own rules and say "whatever graces I need to do better do Your will"...Will I ever learn?Hahaha!

Oh how exciting is it though -within those boundaries (pfft!) and knowing that God works in mysterious ways anyway within ACTUAL boundaries...since I have pretty much just given Him free reign...ANYTHING could happen -now isn't that just terribly exciting <terrifying too; but exciting nontheless!>

watch this space...