Last weekend (after attending Holy Mass but being unable to manage to Holy Communion ...I have mobility issues and visual impairment...-and none of the 5 Eucharistic Ministers noticing, nor the Priest...) I asked for Holy Communion after Mass and was told nope...went to car had a greet with 12&7 year old nieces I'd brought, went back in -composed- and was flat out told I was not "in my place" and to "stop arguing" -I wasn't, I just wanted to know the logic behind it ESPECIALLY given that week's Gospel
AND you want to have heard the homily...which I did...twice...
I went to evening Mass -he couldn't even look at me.
Didn't go their this weekend...
I swear -I must be made of see-through stuff or look like I'm bringing a bad reputation to Christianity ... Ostracised much??!!!!
I used to attend daily -morning prayer and Holy Mass.
And from 3 to 28 never missed a single Mass or holy day of obligation and canted the Masses... Sometimes 4 a weekend...
I feel as though I'm being made to feel like a nothing...I have tried to offer the only thing I can (my voice..but no longer do now)
My heart is breaking.
My self harm is even worse than ever and now I've come clean with my psychiatrist about having switched to a hammer because bruises are easier to explain away...
