Assisted suicide - I am suicidal - do not legalise this!

I am a mess...

I cannot cope the way others appear to...is we time wearing a mask??!!

Am I the only one consumed with thoughts of suicide constantly??!!


Just sent this to my local MSP... For the proposed bill that is to be voted on in the UK in September for "assisted suicide" ...

Yes, I am often suicidal, but believe it or not I AM COMPLETELY AGAINST THIS BILL BECOMING LAW!!...

Here's what I sent...

"Dear Natalie McGarry,

FIRST DO NO HARM... Nuff said!

***

Guess what folks...life is terminal...
(It is nearing 1am so forgive me if I don't word this eloquently but I am in...pain...doesn't quite describe how sore I am just now...) <I have several medical conditions which impact on my breathing, vision, ability to feel things I touch, pain management (or lack thereof), walking, nerve damage, incontinence... It goes on and it ALL feeds into my mental health having taken a nosedive something terrible!!! - I am 30... I never expected much but by golly i never anticipated this!!)
***
If this were legal here, right now, where I am (which is currently in a hospital bed in Scotland)...
I WOULD CHOOSE IT...
Do NOT LET THIS PASS FURTHER THAN IT HAS -open your eyes...it is murder...
***DO NOT HELP ME and others like me MURDER ME...***
I fight suicidal thoughts enough as it is without having a "right" to die act brought out...
...It would become an OBLIGATION...
Yes, it IS that black and white...
LIFE vs DEATH!"

Still here

meh... Couldn't leave someone to find a body -that's just...

i hate me.

So i hurt me instead....seemed lesser of 2 evils....

But then, i still live -that's the greater evil isn't it?

Angel

i won't get to be one.
Wish it had been meningitis or sepsis last month.
That was my only hope.

Mea Culpa-as always ... Never lend money

Nobody can help -my sister now has four babies and I owe her £50, I owe my cousin £70...and -£600. I messaged the person whom I leant lots of money too...but she hasn't anything.

I messaged my friend (well I don't think she is my friend anymore since she got her new fella and finished learning to drive and, well, she has lots of good people building her up...doesn't need me tearing her down) but i text to ask if she'll take care of my cat. He has some food and is a good boy really. He shouldn't be too much of a burden. Someone will take care of him. Someone nice. Even if she can't.

Maybe my friends Sam and David could. I can't message anyone now thogh. The police will come.